The past few months, I’ve been working in front of my computer. At times, it felt like slow movements; a nagging … “get it done, get it done.” At the same time, I was reading books and paying attention to how I felt. My feelings were: why the hurry? Give it time. Don’t rush it.
I’ve been trying to give myself space. I didn’t make my mental deadlines public, because I wanted to work in a comfortable way (yes, those deadlines kept changing). I didn’t want the added burden of external expectations. I’ve done that before and failed. Creativity isn’t a place to rush. However, it is a place to attend to.
I could have literally spent 8-10 hours a day working on producing my next online class. Instead I gave it time to process. Since the time I started working on this (yes, its been awhile), I’ve run into technical and software issues. And, the online hosting platform I was using announced they were shutting down. (Stop. Re-group. Time to go down a rabbit hole of research.) Disappointment and hurdles can slow you down.
I didn’t give up though. I just gave myself patience and space. If it is meant to be, it will be. Breathe.
There have been times that I pushed myself to perform and found my health was affected by it. I’m older and don’t want to live like that. I think many people are feeling this way. Covid gave us all a time to really slow down. Now as things are returning to normal, many of us don’t want to go back to our old ways. It’s Ok. Its actually healthy to step off the treadmill and meditate.
Above all, it is important to be aware of how you feel toward what you are doing. Step back, check in, and reflect. Is it important to you? If yes, take time for it. If no, then let it go. Along the way, remember to be kind to yourself. It’s ok to allow space for things to happen.
Wonderful post, you’re being mindful about this process – so the result is likely to be different and better than what you initially imagined! It was also a good reminder for me today – to slow down, and things will fall into place. Looking forward to taking a class with you on your “new” platform.
Marcia, Thank you for your kind words. I’m glad my posts help. New platform coming very soon!
Miss seeing you at guild. Enjoy your blog…you have it figured out!
Thanks Jackie! I miss seeing everyone too. Figured out? I’m trying but there’s always something new to learn. Stay well, lady!
Beautiful post, Nanette, and one I can easily relate. Breathe, yes. I have irons in the fire but I can turn down the heat and work at a slower pace, allow for discovery, allow for grace.
I miss our connection. Hope to “see” you soon.
Thank you, Karen. Bravo, for being aware that the heat can be turned down. I frequently need to remind myself. Its a slow and graceful is a good way to work.